Sometimes, you have to be someone else before you can discover who you truly are. I might have reached a point where I have concealed my emotions for so long that I don't know how to express them anymore. I can start, I can visualise the ending, but I can never continue on the journey, and I think this is going to be my downfall in life.Paralysed by paranoia, fueled by irrationality, killed by indecision. I think my aversion to talking about my problems originated from my inability to come to terms with some of my fears, that I would go too far down the rabbit hole and not being able to crawl back up. I think I cannot accept this dark side of me for fear that I can no longer become that glorified, idealised image I always picture myself to be Like the hapless creature trapped by circumstances, I have absolutely lost hope in everything and everyone around me that to continue hoping would be blinding oneself to the difficult and painful truth and the harsh realities of whatever problem is afflicting your life. when the simplest of joy is now the most complicated and the things which used to cheer me up no longer cheer me up as easily as they used to. If people can be inherently happy, then couldn't others be sad by nature as well. After building so many mental walls, could it be that cracks are starting to open up. Anyone who is responsible enough can be in a leadership position, but not everybody can be a leader in that role. You aren't afraid of the team collapsing when you aren't around; you're afraid of them succeeding without you. Such is the irony of working in logistics, for they will learn to build up an extensive network, but they exist only in a small circle; will develop numerous connections, but limited relationships. For once, I just want to feel appreciated. I want to be the kind of friend whom friends acknowledge as having made an impact in their life, the kind of person who made a difference in the lives of others. How firm we stand during those moments of torment might define us as a person. I am afraid that when the true temptation comes in my way, I would be the first to give in to it. I don't know why, but I can never bring myself to talk about my problems to anyone. I always needed time on my own.I say love is a lie. To the idealist, it is a noble trade - to serve and, well, to serve. To the altruistic, it is a worthy cause - contribution without decoration. To the realist, it is a needed profession - to be served and taken care of. It's a scary thought venturing into the realm of the unknown that is your future, your life, that has so many possibilities. whether I still doubt love or find love and get married. Everyone of us believes that we are meant for great things in life, and I too, suffer from that (dis)illusion of grandeur. Still I drown in tears of pain. To love is to risk not being loved in return. It is as though my life has always been revolving around others and my existence is built upon what others think of me. The desire to do well in my favourite teachers' subjects had always been my source of motivation even though, in the larger scheme of things, it is a very insecure way of leading life. Here is someone who thinks too much about decisions that he eventually becomes paralysed in thoughts; mindful enough to weigh in all the different factors till the point that there is no longer a "right" or "best" decision; and when a decision is finally made, it is often based on inconsequential aspects. Humans too have their individual shatter point. I ignored problems when I should really be facing up to them, not having the courage to accept certain facts and blatantly blinding myself to hard truths. The problem with repressed emotions and suppressed memories is that, they were never gone in the first place. These repressed emotions and suppressed memories, upon released from its mental cage, will haunt us back more violently. With all your fears and insecurities placed before you, paralysed by your own dark side which you never dared let out, you can only start breaking down and attempt to rebuild all your defences again. Many people have overestimated my ability and placed too much faith in me."but what if I want to only be me?" "then who are you?" Truth be told, I don't see what's wrong in lowering your expectations so that people can finally please you. Right now I just want to lie in bed and talk to someone. Introverted, but prone to the occasional eccentrics and gibberish. Possibly bipolar. The unspoken side that love isn't as rosy or as splendid as many make it out to be. Creating the perfect first impression to make each other feel loved, only to be let down by heightened expectations. Easier to accept imperfections when we are exposed to it earlier, than to worship perfection first only to be shattered by its imperfection later on. On the day that I really do find love, that I can say with full confidence I know what love is, when I proclaim I'm in love, I'll post it down here for the world to see.Desperately trying to fit in. I started to mature and developed a huge sense of self-awareness. Trying to battle his own sense of self-worth, from inherent insecurities. Feelings such as attraction and infatuation. Care. Honesty. Service. Said person must have empathy, well-mannered and be a figure of influence. I have beautiful eyelashes. An ever stifling creativity. I realise that I do enjoy listening to and helping people. The need to be emotionally strong and mentally resilient. People's expectations are always getting to me. Stupid question begets stupid answers. High-end lifestyle I dream of leading. Still many things left incomplete, greater challenges yet to overcome. Matured sufficiently enough to not vacillate in my decisions as much as I used to have, understand myself better, and have a clearer picture of my future. Be on the path that I have laid for myself. Do some crazy stuffs without thinking of the consequences, take risks like we never risked before, find love(s) as driven by our hormones, splurge and learn to indulge. I'm actually the kind who wouldn't mind knowing when I die. Start to ignore the white noise around you. A great source of motivation to do many things you used to be too afraid of doing. Outlooks are grim and reasons to be happy, or even upbeat, are hard to come by. Any decisions we made in the present will have some sort of bearing on our future. Living for the future. Trying to stay strong the past few years all seemed like a waste. Everything I had done so far in life, all the difficult decisions I made, the turn I took at the fork in the road, all these count for something eventually. All of them build up to this grand finale. Life has been led meaningfully, that I had made a difference and left a mark on this world. Because you'd know that everything else you can survive.
12/29/2011 11:38:00 PM
Monday, December 05, 2011
If pop culture was to be believed, then we would have slightly over a year left before the apocalypse. As such, we should all stop with our daily mundane routine and try to enjoy what could be our last year on earth - do some crazy stuffs without thinking of the consequences, take risks like we never risked before, find love(s) as driven by our hormones, splurge and learn to indulge. Seemed like the perfect way to live life, if not for the fact that it could be our last few pleasures we would ever get to experience. So, throw all your worries away and let us lead a hedonistic lifestyle as we anticipate the end of the world. Of course, if pop culture turned out to be wrong, and it isn't the first time (the world was prophesied to end on May 22 and later changed to October 21), then having thrown away all that we had and becoming a real-life Dorian Grey, it would really be the end of our world.
For all the uncertainty surrounding death, I'm actually the kind who wouldn't mind knowing when I die. This isn't the same as knowing what life has planned for you. Instead, it is just knowing 1 particular date, a day where your life will cease. It is a rather morbid interpretation of "fix your eyes on the finishing line", but knowing when you die will certainly help in planning and charting your life's paths. Your dreams become more concrete, you learn to be more focused on what you want out of life, you start to ignore the white noise around you, and with a greater sense of urgency, it drives you forward in accomplishing your goals. Knowing when you will die, you can make preparations and start living your mark on earth and the people around you while you were too uninspired to previously do so. People say that knowledge is power. Well, knowledge like knowing when you die, that is power too, and that knowledge can be a great source of motivation to do many things you used to be too afraid of doing.
"Live each day like you're dying" so that you can fully maximise every single day is the kind of new-age philosophy which self-help writers are trying to advocate in a world where outlooks are grim and reasons to be happy, or even upbeat, are hard to come by. Considering how predisposed we are to jealously and pride, it's not difficult to see how we make life more depressing for ourselves than it already is. The mindset of "to live like it is our last day on earth" breaks our outlook of life as one long continuous passage of time. Instead, life is seen as being incredibly short-termed, with each day independent of the next. As with all philosophies, it is so much easier to write about and discuss in theory than to actually live it out. Crappy self-help books aside, we often feel inspired by dying influential figures who talked about maximising everyday of your life and trying to make a difference with your time left on earth. But seriously, can we really learn to develop such a mindset and lead life each day as though it was independent of the next? Barring any terminal illness, it is just too difficult to think that way. As much as we try to, at the back of our mind, we know that we're healthy individuals who would wake up the next day. This psyche is something we cannot change as opposed to individuals whose days on earth are numbered, knowing that they might never wake up to the next sunrise. Even then, how beneficial would it be for us to lead life as such? Most of our life we were ingrained with the idea that any decisions we made in the present will have some sort of bearing on our future, and I like to believe that it were so. Instead of living for the present, we're living for the future and for everyone, I think that's how we should at least approach life by. We may have something to learn from the people who lived each day as though it were their last, but trying to emulate their thinking would not make up for the difference between our lives and do justice to the life we're leading.
For all that has been said, I'm not ready to die. There are still many things in life which I still have not got to experience, goals I have yet to achieve, and if life were to end it would make trying to stay strong the past few years all seemed like a waste. Maybe I'm being an idealist, but I like to believe that everything I had done so far in life, all the difficult decisions I made, the turn I took at the fork in the road, all these count for something eventually. I don't know when, I don't know how, but I like to know that all of them build up to this grand finale which I want my life to lead up to. Like everyone else I need to know that my life has been led meaningfully, that I had made a difference and left a mark on this world, or on people at least. But, if the world were to end next year, I wouldn't have any qualms about it. This is not to say that I want to die in case you haven't been reading properly. Rather, I wouldn't be dreading the apocalypse if it were to actually come but neither would I be embracing it. The world could end and I would be indifferent towards it. Maybe the only thing I fear was how the world would be destroyed, or how i would die.
Don't bother asking why, because I have troubling rationalising it myself.
"I was thinking about death and all. About seeing how you're gonna die. I mean, on one hand, if dying was all you thought about, it could kind of screw you up. But it could kind of help you, couldn't it? Because you'd know that everything else you can survive." - Big Fish (2003)
12/05/2011 01:36:00 PM
Monday, November 07, 2011
Kids have many ambitions, but it's always the same career aspirations - doctors, firemen, policemen...basically the glamourous jobs with high salaries and/or recognition. Me? I had none. My parents, like all parents do, wanted me to be a doctor or a vet, but my interest in the humanities meant that my parents and I were never on the same wavelength, and my enrolment in the arts stream in jc basically killed their dreams.
My first career aspiration wasn't a illustrious job; I wanted to be an editor back in secondary school. It came at a time when my writing skills were picking up and adults saw the potential I had in the written language. Ideas of a career along those lines were being suggested and for a while, I was mildly interested. The interest developed further into wanting to become a writer and it reached a peak where I wanted to do a Major in the English language in university. However, as I advanced through the years, studied the language in greater detail and was exposed to many forms of writing and creative expressions, I started to realise just how limited my grasp of the language was, and coupled with an ever stifling creativity, I knew I could never get far in such a career. I still have an interest in writing, and my involvement in publications is a way of satisfying it, but right now, I can never see myself in a career along those lines.
If people were to ask me right now what I see myself doing in the future, I would shrugged it off and nonchalantly proclaimed that I had not thought about it yet. But, if one were to probe me a little further, I would admit that I really want to become a counselling psychologist and help patients deal with their problems. I don't know how, I don't know why, but the interest in such a career somehow sparked off somewhere during my life and it is now a profession of consideration for me to actually work towards to. If there's one thing for sure, from all those times when I listened to friends' problems or being sought for for advice, I realise that I do enjoy listening to and helping people and it's something which I really hope I can take it to a professional level. When I was with my psychologist, there are times when I wanted to be the person on the other end listening and taking down notes instead of the one talking, and I guess the mental image just got stuck in my mind.
Those are the things which I tell people during serious talks, and so far, people have been pretty supportive. It never is going to be a high-paying job, but I can live with that as long as I can afford to live comfortably and decently. The only downside is the need to be emotionally strong and mentally resilient, characteristics which I often questioned myself of. Then came the comment that people who study psychology in university are generally unsure of what they want to do in the future, in addition to my surprisingly good A level results which opened up the possibilities of highly-regarded courses which could lead to highly-regarded careers, and I start to wonder whether, deep down, counselling is the right calling.
Ever since people found out about my results, words like "law", "medicine", "engineering" started popping up in conversations. People who frequently mentioned the latter two or any other words of relation are generally idiots because they forgot that I actually graduated from the arts stream. If there's one disadvantage of studying the arts in jc, is that it seriously shuts off a lot of paths in university. The opportunity costs of studying the arts over the sciences is an asymmetric one; I see many of our science counterparts intending to go to fass and sometimes, I can't help but think what are you guys doing here?! We have it hard enough as it is already and we don't need people like you stealing our places! On the other side of the coin, even the rewards of doing well in the arts stream aren't as appealing as compared to doing well in the science stream, which once again reflects the asymmetrical state of both streams. I think this is something which has to be corrected in our education sector but I have digressed too much. Anyway, truth be told, I have always aimed for a place in fass ever since I got into jc, because, what other courses could I go to? And because of this, whenever people ask me why I didn't choose law, I could tell them that I never had any intention of studying law. But because of this, I wondered whether I had became so narrow-minded in my long-term goals (back at that time) that I couldn't see myself doing anything else other than anything related to the humanities, even with a result that allowed me to do so.
I admit, people's expectations are always getting to me. I remembered after graduating from secondary school, I told people I wanted to study the humanities and many of them replied with some form of incredulity, "but what are you going to study?!" erm...the arts, you moron. Of course I didn't say that, but some part of me always wanted to; stupid question begets stupid answers, I like to believe. And right now, I wonder whether trying to apply for law would finally quell the bewilderment surrounding my future from the people who think I'm not doing justice to my results. I cannot imagine myself practicinsg law 15 years from now, at least that's what I keep telling myself, but I wonder how much of it is truly from a lack of interest in such a profession.
For a period of time while serving, I actually considered doing a part-time degree in law just for kicks, but alas, I was given the worst, the most unfortunate posting for a somewhat favourable vocation and that dream just sort of fell apart. So you see, there was some very mild, very lukewarm interest in law, I just didn't know why I couldn't take it up a notch. What I have in mind for the next 10 years at least, I'm going to do something I'm interested in, an interest which just developed from nowhere, and with all the talk these days about pursuing your dreams and goals and all that bullshit, I guess I'm being slightly unorthodox by aspiring towards a completely less-than-stellar career. In some ways, it also contradicts the kind of high-end lifestyle I dream of leading.
It's not to say studying psychology in university is going to be a stroll. Almost everybody wants to study psychology so that they could self-diagnose themselves as being psychopathic or not, but I think very few people actually choose it as a specialised choice of study, and an even smaller number of people actually go on to take it up as a profession later on. As much as I can talk of it being my interest as of now, I admit I do not know whether the interest can be sustained past the first, second or third year into my studies, and whether I can build on that momentum to actually practice it when I graduate. And for that to actually happen I would need to further my studies which is going to be even more demanding. Now that you come to think of it, it's actually not an easy professional to enter; for a career which takes a longer path than most to enter, its payoffs aren't that great, but it's something I'm determined to do.
I'm thinking a lot more about my future right now because for the first time, I can finally see an end to all these madness. There are still many things left incomplete, greater challengers yet to overcome, but at last, the finishing line has never been clearer. As of right now, I'm clinging on to my current aspiration, what I can see myself doing in the long-term, and I hoped that, having turned 20 recently, I have matured sufficiently enough to not vacillate in my decisions as much as I used to have, understand myself better, and have a clearer picture of my future.
Exactly 1 year from now, I shall reflect back on this and hopefully be on the path that I have laid for myself.
11/07/2011 01:52:00 AM
Sunday, October 30, 2011
D +18 Second time round, I've learned from the past, I won't make the same mistakes again.
D +17 Two options: success or suicide.
D +16 "It's not that I don't want to help, because if I say no, people will say my logistics fucked up. But you people have to realise that your requests and demands are not making my job any easier."
D +15 As much as I hate the army, where else can 6 teens go exploring on a speeding jeep up steep mountain slopes and rocky tracks and make a slight detour to go sightseeing? As much as I hate the army, it was pretty cool.
D +14 You and I have different roles to play, and over here, I'm not going to be afraid to show that I have nothing to do. Sue me.
D +13 "Guys, are we seriously going to sit down here and do nothing?!"
D-12 The man said to the boy, "you can be so much more than what you are right now." The boy replied, "but what if I want to only be me?" The man answered, "then who are you?" And to that, the boy had no reply.
D +11 "Just because the object of your affection is single doesn't mean he/she is interested in you."
D +10 At the top of the mountain, with the breeze against your face like nothing you have ever experienced before, viewing the scenery down below, the sky above you like a rolling piece of painted canvas, resisting the mental urge to break out into a musical number, everything feels so surreal, so calm, so peace, and at that point in time, you just wished you weren't wearing green, or being there for anything related to it.
I wouldn't go so far as to say I became one with Nature, but having your worries mitigated through the tranquility, your paranoia quelled in the face of the majestic, your insecurities palliated by the serene, you start to think: I could get used to this.
D +9 In the mess, singing to ktv of Backstreet Boys, I feel like a 6 year old fangirl.
D +8 This date is a very significant date for me, and I'm trying to forget the significance of it.
Oh Shaun, why do you always set yourself up for failure?
D +7 Why do you pride yourself on doing the wrong things and not getting caught?
D +6 Learn to complete *something* without any tangible incentive.
Undoubtedly questionable.
D +5 I used to think that you're one of those who understands the difficulties and complexities of my job, but when you start shouting at me and blaming me for an error which affects you, I realised that you're just being respectful and well-mannered in your dealings with me.
D +4 Is motivation drive by a need to make up for some physical or psychological deficit?
D +3 If I'm allowed to hit out at people who annoys me, I think I would be a less stressed up person.
D +2 When overseas, spend first, think later, worry last.
D +1 1 whisky. 1 vodka. 6 guys. Black and White. Ring of fire. Drunk. Footages. Vomit. 3 guys. 1 bed.
D +0 It's good to be back.
10/30/2011 10:22:00 AM
Monday, October 10, 2011
I pray You'll be our eyes, and watch us where we go And help us to be wise in times when we don't know Let this be our prayer, when we lose our way Lead us to the place, guide us with Your grace To a place where we'll be safe
I pray we'll find Your light, and hold it in our hearts When stars go out each night, remind us where You are Let this be our prayer, when shadows fill our day Help us find a place, guide us with Your grace Give us faith so we'll be safe
A world where pain and sorrow will be ended And every heart that's broken will be mended And we'll remember we are all God's children Reaching out to touch You, reaching to the sky
We ask that life be kind, and watch us from above We hope each soul will find another soul to love Let this be our prayer, just like every child Who needs to find a place, guide us with Your grace Give us faith so we'll be safe
Let this be my prayer -------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Second time round, I tell myself I've matured, I've grown, I won't make the same mistakes again.
I caught myself in a moment of raising hopes again, and I stopped myself from daydreaming further just so that I won't be let down later on. Because, truth be told, I don't see what's wrong in lowering your expectations so that people can finally please you; people have disappointed far too many times.
I guess this is goodbye, for now.
10/10/2011 09:24:00 PM
Friday, October 07, 2011
There will come a point in time when you start to think, I'm important too, I should stop accommodating others at the expense of my own comfort, happiness and even convenience. It's me now.
1010. Who's your favorite cartoon character? Hikari from Digimon.
1011. Does break dancing impress you? A lot.
1012. Are you a smooth operator? Of course not.
1013. Would you rather be a police officer or a criminal? Both. Sometimes I want to be bad, but sometimes I want to be the hero.
1014. Do you believe that government decisions should be made based more on economics or more on social reform? I believe economic reforms should take precedence over social reforms, but it doesn't mean it is any less important for the government.
1015. Why do 'they' spend money to sterilize needles that are going to be used to give lethal injections? Code of Conduct. Like the Warrior's Code.
1016. This summer have you:
(Singapore doesn't have summer but the weather is almost like summer everyday)
Been to the beach? No. I don't really like sand.
been to the movies? Yes.
Played mini golf? No.
Gone for a walk? Yes.
1017. Would you rather lie in bed all night talking or have sex all night long? Both are desirable, but right now I just want to lie in bed and talk to someone.
1018. Have you ever eaten tofu? Of course.
1019. Who needs a brain? Most warrants.
1020. Who needs a heart? Most of the regulars.
1021. Does the moon have an affect on your mood? No, but the night does.
1022. Do you feel pressure on Friday and Saturday to have fun, go out and party? No, unless I'm invited for an event.
1023. Many people will say that the Harry Potter books are pure fluff with no literary value. Do you agree? No. I think it typifies literature of the 21st century.
1024. Is Harry Potter comparable to The Chronicles of Narnia and the Lord of the Rings? I think Harry Potter is the Chronicles of Narnia and LOTR of our time.
1025. What are you doing next Wednesday? I'll be in Taiwan training =(
1026. Why do so many people think Elvis is still alive? Because people are ignorant and naive.
1027. What couldn't you live your life without? My iPad.
1028. Are your hands cold? Yes.
1029. Is your heart warm? Could be warmer.
1030. Palm trees or snow storms? Palm trees. Snow storms are too scary and devastating.
1031. What bands would be great if only the singing was edited out? Yellowcard, MLTR
1032. What fantasy book would you like to see made into a movie? Any Stephen Fry novel.
1033. Do you avoid risks and if possible stay at home? "...To hope is to risk despair. To try is to risk failure. But the person who risks nothing, does nothing, has nothing and is nothing. They may avoid suffering and sorrow, but they simply cannot learn, feel, change, grow, love or live. Risks must be taken because, the greatest hazard in life is to risk nothing. Only a person who risks is free."
1034. What sci-fi books do you read? I can only think of Star Wars canons.
1035. Would you be on Who Wants To Marry A Millionaire as a contestant? I wouldn't mind. I'm a superficial kind of guy.
1036. Who's the best secret keeper you know? Myself.
1038. Is it easier to live when you're evil? Yes. You don't need to care about consequences because you're the one causing it.
1039. Have you ever belonged to a sorority or a fraternity? No, unless you consider the whole of CatHigh a fraternity.
1040. Would you want to join one? No real inclination to.
1041. If your friend were doing dangerous drugs would you tell their parents? No, not because I don't care about them, but because I believe that teens have different reasons for trusting in the friends and parents.
1042. Would you rather be a unicorn, mermaid/man, or a sorceress/er? A sorcerer.
1043. Are leather pants sexy? On you? Yes, but it isn't exactly a huge turn-on for me. No.
1044. Did you tell someone you love him or her today? No.
1045. Have you ever given blood? No.
1046. Have you ever been thrown out of someplace? No.
1047. What do you daydream about? My future.
1048. Are you a miracle? No. I'm a huge scare.
1049. If America is one nation under God then are atheists citizens? Yes.
1050. Should they be? Yes. God doesn't discriminate.
1051. If you could pick any rock star to replace the Ozbournes in their reality show, whom would you pick? Steven Tyler
1052. What are your feelings about Mel Gibson's movie The Passion of Christ? I don't know what the controversies are all about.
1053. What did you think about the last episode of Sex and the City? Bittersweet. I love the series. (Don't judge)
1054. What is your favorite movie with Adam Sandler in it? The Longest Yard.
1055. What is your biggest problem? Myself.
1056. Have you ever been arrested? Of course not.
1057. Can musicians be held responsible for influencing people to behave badly? They could have played a factor, but I don't think they are to be held responsible for the behaviour of people.
1058. Do you believe that there are subliminal messages embedded in some TV shows, movies and music? No. I think subliminal messages are just a trick of the mind, a psychological vindication of what we choose to believe.
1059. Is there anything that you believe should be banned for any reason? Forced Service.
1060. How often do you eat too much? Very rarely.
1061. Have you ever descended into pure madness? Nope.
1062. Would you want to? Yes. It would be interesting to see how I turn out.
1063. Do green M&Ms make you feel sexy? No. I don't really like the colour green.
1064. If you died tomorrow, what mark would you have left on the world? On the world, nothing. Too insignificant.
1065. What movie would you never want to see? Horror movies. Yes I'm a wimp.
1066. What annoys you the most about yourself? Me second-guessing myself.
1067. How do you feel about capitalism? A necessity to give the world choices and to encourage constant innovation from competition.
1068. How do you feel about socialism? An ideal which is undermined by the concentration of power which would lead to exploitation and many social problems.
1069. How do you feel about communism? An utopian notion but eventually flawed due to the imperfections of human beings.
1070. Has anyone ever tried to injure you? Not of anybody I know of.
1071. Has anyone ever tried to kill you? I don't think so...right?
1072. How do you know when it's time to break up with someone? When the detriments of staying in the relationship outweighed the benefits caused by the inherent differences between both parties which gave rise to conflicts instead of "warm, fuzzy feelings."
1073. What is your opinion of the Janet jackson/Justin Timberlake superbowl exposure incident? The nip slip? Too young to care back then and still am.
1074. What's the most annoying sound? Me screaming Babies crying.
1075. Who was your childhood hero? One of my relatives.
1076. With nearly 100 channels why is nothing ever on? Because you're too busy channel-surfing to actually stop and realise there are actually some decent shows on air.
1077. Would you adopt a stray kitty wandering through your neighborhood? No, but maybe puppies.
1078. Describe what you look like: Some think I'm cute, but I'm actually just small. Oh, I have long and beautiful eyelashes.
1079. Describe what you are like: Introverted, but prone to the occasional eccentrics and gibberish. Possibly bipolar.
1080. What bad habit do you have that affects other people as much as it affects you? When I get really sad and depressed and make other people sad and depressed as well.
1081. How did you party New Year Eve in 1999? I was 8 back then, so it probably means I was in church with my parents.
1082. Does second hand smoke bother you? No. I got used to it a long time ago, unless it's really overwhelming.
1083. Have you ever:
Dumped a drink over someone's head? No.
Dumped a drink over your own head? I think so.
Bit someone? YES! AHAHA!!!
Torn at someone's clothes? Yes, but it wasn't sex.
Made out in the bathroom? No. Ew...
1084. Which Lord of the Rings movie has the best ending? The Two Towers.
1085. Do you have any interesting scars? Nope. All my scars have healed.
1086. Is it better for people to change and evolve their ideas or always be consistent? Can't people find a balance between both?
1087. Warped tour, Lollapalooza or Area concert? Lollapalooza.
1088. What are you missing in your life? A shoulder to cry on.
1089. Do you ever know when someone is thinking about you? No, but I wished I knew.
1090. What could you make a sculpture out of that's in the room with you right now? A lot of stationaries, scrap paper and other fanciful decorative stuffs.
1091. Do you believe in the lost city of Atlantis? Yes.
1092. Have you ever read The Little Prince? Definitely.
1093. This is Mr. fish <>< What's the best picture you can make on your keyboard? _|_ (No offence, I'm not exactly the creative sort)
1094. What did Mr. Octopus say to Mrs. Octopus? *While cleaning the dishes* "The kid needs changing."
1095. Let's see if I'm psychic. Write a yes or no question here. "Am I on the right path?"
1096. Write another Yes/No question. "Are people mean?"
1097. Think of just one more yes or no question. "Do I love you?"
1098. Type one question that can be answered with a color. "What colour are the walls of my room?"
1099. Think of a number between 1-100 and type it down. 13
1100. Write one more question, anything you want. "What do you think of me?
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10/07/2011 07:20:00 PM
Love me when I least deserve it, because that's when I really need it
